random and goal

CUrrently I haven't found any formal work to do yet. I didn't try hard which is really bad.

Another way, I found my ultimate goal of my well being, after watching live ballet jewels in la scala. Plus, I do some search online, then really appreciate dancers, their body, professional attitude, and capabilities to do the movements that are so difficult.

The beginning was from bin laden got killed by navy seal team 6. SEarching online, I downloaded a documentary special about how to become a scout sniper. Meanwhile, I started jogging. So I know how harsh it Is to be physically prepared to meet those requirements. And it only the basic condition.

After I saw the ballet, I realized that dancers are a group of ppl who possess the perfect shape of body and are able to control their body at the highest level that human being can ever imagine. I admire so  such this kind of control and perfection, right at the moment. And they are so elegant!! Although I learned for a short time of ballet when I was young, which benefited me still a lot, like improved flexibility of my body to some extend which allowed me passed flexibility tests in the primary school and middle school without taking them as torture and made me enjoy the class.

In addition, I care my body shape so much, and I would go on a vicious cycle if I eat I get fat, I want to lose weight and recently it gets very difficult as I'm aging. Well, I so don't like myself getting fat and can't get back to fit. So the vicious cycle is like I eat I can't easily lose weight, and I get less confident. I hate fat on the ab, butterfly arm, and fatty thighs and cellulite. But now they're coming, which fast the vicious cycle.

Well, now I decide I'll take ballet class when possible. I'll keep diet and exercises. Dieting is so...I like sweets, cake and chocolates, anything sweet and creamy. But I badly want my waist line back to what it used to be. And by following dancers their blog and Twitter, it helps me to control the appetite, the eager for bad food, as I see their pics and videos, like a practice visual reinforcement. I know I won't be anyhow like them, but maybe get closer.

Balletomane I turn out to be.

One more nerdy thought, sheldon like, only do I need a healthy egg, I can grow my dani, as his ballet shoes are sold online, if stinky may imply unwashed?!