Finally, I don't know where to go

I failed. I didn't get the expected result of IELTS test which means that although I still reach the requirement of UAL but still half point off to many other excellent graduate schools of arts administration like City, Goldsmiths, Warwick.

Just now, after I finally decided to take the burden to UK, I happened to know that Shanghai representative office has been retracted. So incredibly that I even got the email from the head two days ago. Am I ridiculed?

最近好像一直在做“挖空”的事。真不知道怎么回事。It may be a good thing that I can settled down to what I should have done as any graduate that finding a job and live a ordinary life. Then, if the UK study is hard to come to true, I surely will find a job, take the IELTS again and decorate my house which is the most thing that makes me morose if I can't finish it before I study abroad.

Time is passing so fast! Can't believe I am the guy that directly unemployed after graduation. I don't want to be idle anymore. Yes or no, I need a result!